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When I am fulfilled, I do not feel like doing anything.
I just want to close my eyes and feel reverberations of what I experience in silence.
I hope to memorize the air surrounding me here and now in my soul.
So, I breathe in slowly and deeply.
The vibration of the air is transmitted to the cells in my body
and gradually spread to my extremities.
I try to make sure the vibration penetrates deep down into my soul.
Then, I would like to breathe out peacefully with the shape of an art.
If I reincarnate someday somewhere,
I hope to recall slight fragments of my present memory, which may fade away soon,
within the transient vibration transmitted from somewhere,
I imagine I would be very happy.
It seems my art is walking few years ahead of me. Sometimes, my view point shifts, for example, I see different things a few years after I create artwork.
I have experienced and learned so many things by creating art, and that has affected my propensity and my life. Recently, there was a moment, when I came to full appreciation of art and realization because it had modified my personal life and my vision.
I was impressed by art again.
It has been more than twenty years since art has become part of my life.
Ifve always been attracted to gLight and Shadowh
Even though, my interest has shifted from physical phenomenon of light and shadow into spiritual phenomenon of the transformation.
For me, the experience of light is an experience of shadow. The mysterious light, which reflects and refracts can be seen as translucent light or translucent shadow.
In this translucency, I see, feel, and perceive that there is an ineffable, ambiguous, yet ironic duality, which reflects and contains this world and myself. Sometimes translucent gray is infinitely close to opaque black, and stands still as an obstacle, which I could possibly go beyond. On the other hand, translucent gray is infinitely close to transparent white, and makes me think God is here!
Then I wonder, if ever, a line exists between the opaque and translucent and / or between the translucent and transparent. Borders exist in my own life as well. For example, I cannot clarify any longer as to which point those borders divide my positive from my negative feelings.
If this is so, do the shadows or gray quality in my environment control me or is it that I control the shadow? This dual shift of never ending spiral within this ambiguity seems to generate from my emotion and my environment. It seems that my vision depends on what I picked as a subject and how I bring it to life, my perception changes constantly. According to my perception, my emotion seems to be made up. Experiencing the similar emotions repeatedly create my memory. When my perception shifts, my emotion shifts immediately. Then, I wonder if it is possible to change my memory, too. My focal point of what is important blurs, however, gray is still gray. One certain thing is that the mysterious quality of translucent shadow forces me to recall and reflect upon my personal experience and memory.
Reflection taken further is a projection into my Japanese cultural heritage which is based on ambiguity, also referred to as moderation, could be a cultural irony and beauty.
And eventually this ironical reflection goes much further into our archetypical memory.
One day while experiencing a transition in my daily routine, I realized a transformation in my life style. For example, my tastes for food and music have changed. Even people around me were shifted. Moreover, my decision making process shifted. Certain revelations or knowledge is only obtained by repetition of my emotion and intuition while other information is gained by repetition of rational thought process.
For example, when I confront a problem, I imagine myself as a movie director, how to develop this drama. I escape from confronting reality and stay in my art world as a defense.
At the same time, I also escape from being dominated by fear, anger and selfishness. Aesthetics sometimes helps me to make a decision. When I can afford to obtain courage to hold the tense vibration, I see my weakness and cowardliness within a contradiction of this society and others. So, it makes me angry at first, then, I begin to feel more affection for others.
Furthermore, I realize that I loose the boundary between reality and non-reality of art world. They fuse together.
In addition, when I let something go or I am refused by something, often the border is shifted and the sphere of activity is expanded. I feel that there is a continual flow in the systematic order and harmonic balance in the chaotic dualities. Therefore, all the positiveness and the negativeness become connected, and lead me to my current state.
My work is about the happiness of discovering beauty of hidden and disappearing transient matters in our lives. I have noticed the importance of tranquil words, trivial matters, and wasted time.
No matter how small it is, beauty has the energy to influence people's mind. Repetition of layered matters and collage fragments in my work seem to create a new transient world beyond the surface to include the essential nature of the component edges that make up the total work. I think that this is the moment in my artwork at which light transforms into shadow and shadow transforms into light. Art has made me realize that light and shadow do not stand opposite to each other, but connect to each other side by side.
And light can not exist without shadow, and shadow highlights light.
gShikisoku Zeku. Kusoku Zeshiki.* (Form it is, in fact non-formed. Non-form, it is, in fact formed.) This is the reason why I would like to stay in art, with mercy, respect and appreciation.
(C) Michiko Miyake
*One of the most popular Buddhism words from Sanskrit by Siddartha Gautama Buddha